We are kept down, coz we hate

http://www.foreverdelayed.org.uk/forum/showthread.php?t=51704

Yeah, I'm freaking stepping my own personal boundaries over more than one issue here. It's against everything I thought was acceptable to do or say through the years.

I need SOME kind of help, it's just that the professionals I've talked to always believe I'm more innocuous than I say I am. Who'd count on the mentally ill, hah.

er, I wanted to write 'I'm not Jesus, you can't run away' on my wall, I think. But I wrote 'I'm not Jesus, I will not forgive.' (Both lines from Apocalyptica - I'm not Jesus) My point is, though, I'm enough of a loser to do this shit. I'm 25, dammit.

I don't have a digital camera, you'll have to take my word.

I've already mentioned it to people, but anyway - I'd want 'I really don't mind being lied to' on my tombstone. It's sick to want to be remembered for my CoRness, but you know what, it's better to be considered CoR than an arsehole who excludes people out of something they love.

Eh, I'd be the one sleeping with the celebrity. Or I'd have been extremely envious.

http://launch.groups.yahoo.com/group/themanicsdressingroom/message/2031
hahaha!

Yeah, that was me 9 years ago :]

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And if you wanna ban someone from from a community, don't threaten, just do it. That's cowardly.

"I've seen things go wrong too many times."

If someone says 'victim mentality', they are referring it to blaming others.

I think of situations like Stockholm Syndrome when it comes to the mentality of victims.

It colours your views on victimhood, when you use the words victim mentality. As if people are ever attacked by an invinisible pink unicorn.


"The death of a disco dancer - Well, I rather not get involved.
I never talk to my neighbour, I rather not get involved."

I'm so excited about the new Manics album title. Why is it always the titles that do it to me? D:

Does anyone still remember the obsession I had with '1985' from before I even heard it???

Comment and I'll give you a letter. You'll post a list of things you love that start with his letter.

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I might even have a second round of this, for kicks. That's enough for now. :)

ILU, U guise!

Friends cut time too. 'It's serious this time'. I'm tired of being afraid of talking to people I barely know. :P

Comment at will, or don't - and let yourself be freed of having me friended through feeling of obligation or politeness.

kthx. :)

You know that American Psycho quote about not wishing good on anyone? So that. [I'm not arsed to look it up.]

ETA: "My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone, in fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others."

I no longer have 'Losing Tao' dysphoria. Yay Tao! ^_^

From: http://www.qwghlm.co.uk/toys/dailymail/

WILL RUSSELL BRAND STEAL THE IDENTITY OF TAXPAYERS?

WILL THE BBC KILL TAXPAYERS' MONEY?

HAS DUMBING-DOWN STOLEN FROM THE QUEEN?

WILL JACQUI SMITH CHEAT ENGLAND?

HAS THE HUMAN RIGHTS ACT HAD SEX WITH THE ROYAL FAMILY?

ARE THE POLES MOLESTING THE QUEEN?

COULD FEMINISM STEAL FROM BRITISH JUSTICE?

etc. etc.

I had a dream.

The reason I'm going to post my dream is because it's hard for me to talk about about how I feel; However, the dreams I'm having are very indicative of how I'm feeling.

In my dream, I was tidying around the house a bit. Not sure exactly what was my purpose or goal in the dream, so I'm not sure you can say I was 'tidying the house'; However, I was moving things around, which for me is a part of tidying. Our house always has things out of their respective places, because of my mum moving things/tidying. In fact, these days, I have a few shirts in my room that afaik are not even mine because of this process. Our house has very little room to slot things in, therefore rooms become storage rooms in addition to their designed purpose.

I have to explain it, because the reason why I went about it this way in my dream isn't trivial to others, maybe what goes on in their house/their idea of order run differently from ours.

Back to my dream, I had some stuff (I suspect most of it was clothes) laying on the sofa asking to be moved. Now, my mum is CONTEXT BLIND. In this situation, she wouldn't ask me what I was doing, or wait a couple of seconds for me to continue the task to see for herself. Like in real life, she yelled/accused me of leaving the stuff there (and I suspect that like in real life, she'd never admit of being angry or reacting less than perfectly.) And I ended up really snapping at her and telling her I feel nothing for her before I woke up.

That dream was after being left alone in the house wordlessly, after waiting for hours because she promised me before that she's taking me with her. And yes, you'd be correct if you feel I told you that story a few months ago, it has happened again.

I would've interpreted the dream but now I'm pretty tired, however I'm sure I was being clear. :)

I wish to write good things...

Today at six, I'm going to a concert (probably.)

Nichey makes me so happy :)

Watched Addams Family - Reunion today and liked it ^__^. I used to watch the old series.